Diary Entries

So life continues. How have I spent the last few days Well to start - Mother's Day was VERY special. Three of my four physically here. Just being together. Running around and enjoying our absolutely delicious granddaughter! That's a highlight. We walk her to the Opera House through our Botanic Gardens - and every time I hit that bend where the Opera House comes into absolute clear focus I hold my breath. The line and definition - it really is fabulous. We know about all the problems inside - but that aside, it's so right that it's one of the modern wonders of the world. I've made sourdough - successfully - and focaccia - not so successfully! But I'm cooking on an inherited Aga - with a mind of its own. I have no control at all! That glass of wine at the end of the day is welcome - and we're all ready then for downtime after time individually spent working or running around. I seem to have ants in my pants - not finding it easy to settle and give myself that luxurious permission to just 'be' - and read! I still seem to need to be busy. One observation - quite off on a tangent now - when we walk in Rushcutter's Bay Park it's a completely different social dynamic than walking through the Gardens. Extraordinary! Not NEARLY so engaging and friendly. The experience for me has 'attitude'! Extraordinary I know... So now to watch STC's weekly offering - behind the scenes watching the actors in rehearsal for Hedda Gabler a few years ago. I have other things to share - and will continue to do so.....

Well it's a beautiful day! Gloriously warm and sunny and the sky is clear. It feels busier -more cars appearing and roaring up and down our streets. We moved just before the lockdown. We were in our glorious family home for 25 happy years - but it was time for a change. So we just made it! In the nick of time! Now we are in the middle of a still bustling Potts Point with new faces and new walks - and with each other constantly! From large house to apartment living - an adjustment at the best of times - but eerily different in these circumstances. But we are happy. Covid-19 and the need to be locked down has been both liberating and confronting. Liberating because we have permission to just 'be' - not having to physically be somewhere else - and permission to go under the radar and be anonymous. On the other side of the coin however, is the very fact of being with oneself - and challenging dark thoughts I can otherwise physically escape from. It can be like sitting in the middle of a mess - just sitting with and amongst it. And some days are better than others. But aren't we blessed! A close-knit family making change and living in the safest of surroundings when we compare ourselves with other parts of the world. Truly an island. Perhaps that's what lockdown feels like - a lot of individual islands. Today, Saturday is great. Our beautiful daughters and baby granddaughter are visiting - and it is absolute joy! I had no idea being a grandmother could extend my excitement and love as much as it does! And feel like a child again myself - a naughty one! More to come. Enough for today. Bronny Carroll