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Restrictions are easing. I still haven't seen my friends (a paranoid part of me feels as if I no longer have any)
my pop passed away in mid april. it wasn't due to covid but the virus still had an effect on his last weeks.
He had a fall
was taken to hospital
only nan was allowed in to see him
he was gone by morning
he was cremated with a strip of sail from his boat
Some days have been ok, others quite far from that. I've found myself staying in bed far longer than necessary, scrolling mindlessly just so I don't have to face the rest of the house. There's nothing wrong with the rest of the house or the people in it but it's just a bit less draining if I only have to experience it for shorter amounts of times
{i've been noticing the sun more. my room doesn't get any direct sunlight most of the year, only ever a sliver around the summer solstice. it's one of my favourite things, to notice the movement of the sun. in summer I can watch the sunset from my window at the front of the house but at this time of year it sets out the back. I don't think we often notice the sheer amount the earth shifts throughout the seasons.}
I'm not quite sure if I'll ever quite feel the same. part of me never wants to leave the house again, never wants to see people. another part of me is yelling at that part of me to not be stupid. there's also part of me wondering how many people will have developed agoraphobia by the end of this.
my pop passed away in mid april. it wasn't due to covid but the virus still had an effect on his last weeks.
He had a fall
was taken to hospital
only nan was allowed in to see him
he was gone by morning
he was cremated with a strip of sail from his boat
Some days have been ok, others quite far from that. I've found myself staying in bed far longer than necessary, scrolling mindlessly just so I don't have to face the rest of the house. There's nothing wrong with the rest of the house or the people in it but it's just a bit less draining if I only have to experience it for shorter amounts of times
{i've been noticing the sun more. my room doesn't get any direct sunlight most of the year, only ever a sliver around the summer solstice. it's one of my favourite things, to notice the movement of the sun. in summer I can watch the sunset from my window at the front of the house but at this time of year it sets out the back. I don't think we often notice the sheer amount the earth shifts throughout the seasons.}
I'm not quite sure if I'll ever quite feel the same. part of me never wants to leave the house again, never wants to see people. another part of me is yelling at that part of me to not be stupid. there's also part of me wondering how many people will have developed agoraphobia by the end of this.