It's 11:00 pm at night. I am sitting in my chair stressing out because my music assignment is due in an hour. I filmed myself multiple times playing the piano but not one video satisfied me, I knew that if it didn't satisfy me then neither would the teach

It's 11:00 pm at night. I am sitting in my chair stressing out because my music assignment is due in an hour. I filmed myself multiple times playing the piano but not one video satisfied me, I knew that if it didn't satisfy me then neither would the teacher be satisfied when they watch it.

The problem is that I am terrified thinking that people would judge me so I don't have the confidence to do a lot of things, like public speaking, speaking in class or doing something in front of crowds. When I was small, I used to go to concerts once a year to perform a piece of music that my teacher suggested. Every time I played, it was either that I mess up or I have a huge panic attack on site.

I never thought I was beautiful, I was pretty average in my opinion. After coming to this school and seeing so many beauties, my confidence level decreased even more. I rather stick to myself rather than making more friends due to my fear of judgements.

The assignment was due soon and I needed to find a plan, in the end, I decided to not film myself but to film the wall while I was playing the piano. I finally finished the assignment and gave it in just before midnight strikes.